125 – Nico

INTERRUPTION… childhood.
My name is Nico. It is not my real name. I am still too afraid to identify myself. I am a survivor of longtime physical and sexual abuse by a woman and my older male brother. It began at a very early age. Because of all the abuse, I do not function very well in the ‘real’ world. I have an attachment disorder, D.I.D., depression, agoraphobia, paranoia, and suicidal ideation. I am trying to overcome all of these obstacles. I have been in therapy for 22 years. While I have progressed in many ways, there is still much that needs to be healed. I still need to learn new coping skills to deal with the ‘outside’ world.I have also recently become a blogger so I can reach others who have experienced the same thing and to let people know the tremendous anguish that abuse causes children. My blog is located at: http://www.interruption-interruption.blogspot.com We were born innocent, but have ended up scarred and filled with self-blame and shame. We must fight together to eliminate ALL abuse. That is what drives me to stay alive. That is what drives me to write and to tell anyone who will listen to the tragedy of child abuse. I can no longer stay silent. I was silent for too long. NO MORE.I am on a journey to become whole…to become who I was before the abuse…the innocent, beautiful, carefree child.

“There is wisdom in every wound. There is an explanation behind every fear. There is a reason for every shadow. They help us to grow. They help us to be compassionate. They help us to forgive.” -Dr. Wayne Dyer

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