Gary L. (New Jersey, United States)

I was a child raised in over 23 foster homes and 16 institutions before the age of 16. In those years, I suffered sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse from countless individuals. I knew it was wrong and I knew that was not the way it should be, but after some time, I began to accept abuse from everyone that knew me.

Instead of telling anyone about how I felt or what was going on, I turned to heavy drug and alcohol use and then ran at the age of 16; and have been running ever since.

At the age of 17 I discovered prostitution. This role seem to fit well with what I expected from everyone because the only reason they wanted to love me was because they would get something in return. That was the way it would be until I was 24.  I was in a very abusive relationship with a woman and we had a child. The inevitable happened, she left me and took the baby. I was crushed and went on a drinking and drug binge. I found myself at one point wanting to kill myself, so in a desperate move, I went to the Emergency room of Jefferson Hospital. I was not able or willing to understand most of what they were saying but they did make me go to AA meetings. Hence the start of a very long recovery process in and out of the rooms of AA.

25 years later, and after 3 more lost, long term relationships ruined, I found myself back to square one again; wanting to kill myself, nowhere to go, my wife taking the children and nowhere to turn. This time, with much of a fight in me still, I was willing to try the recovery process once again, though the results I have seen and the pain I have been willing to endure have been profound. I owe everything to the the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation and thank them for helping me receive trauma therapy sessions that put me on my road to recovery and for helping me become the man I was put on this earth to be.  Those sessions made me realize I was previously treating the “symptoms” of alcohol and drug addiction and not the core issue of my sexual abuse.  I am now more willing to listen and learn than in any other time in my life. I was introduced to the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation by Vince DiPasquale, the founder of The Starting Point.  Through that contact with Vince, I received 30 subsidized trauma therapy counseling sessions from the LGLPCI Foundation. I did not know how much it would change my life.

Thanks to the financial subsidy from the LGLPCI Foundation I have been in counseling sessions and I have been able to see the traumas in my life and how they impacted everything I do; the people I pick for relationships, how distorted my view on life is, and most of all, how bankrupt my heart and soul had become. I am just starting out but the results have been, like I said, very dramatic. I am very blessed to have the counseling I need to grow and live like a human maybe for the first time in my life. I thank whole heartedly the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation for everything they have done for me and for helping me connect how the sexual, physical, mental, and emotional abuse affected every facet of my life.   I look forward to continuing my journey through the process of recovery.
I was a child raised in over 23 foster homes and 16 institutions before the age of 16. In those years, I suffered sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse from countless individuals. I knew it was wrong and I knew that was not the way it should be, but after some time, I began to accept abuse from everyone that knew me.