Memories That Will Not Let Go

by: Anonymous

A computer is like a photo album. Today we
can view anyone who is on a web site.
But the in reality—we can stumble upon
an abuser—without knowing they are there.
Triggered memories can cause –many sickness,—such as headaches, flashbacks,
illness that some, professionals do not really understand. On this day of sept 11,
2009—I was not even looking at the horrible event that took many innocent lives,
But was viewing past events in my own home town—and to my dismay, I encountered
my abuser at 15, He is a very important
person in this community—so many awards
so many ‘high’ postitions, so many trophies.
And what am i—-a person—of value
of ———–I cannot even find it
because I have none—-I am just a victim
of —sexual abuse that memories can never die.
They come back at the event that you will
never suspect–
But the outcome is —not good–because there is no joy, no happy moments, just
sickness—no money–no body–to help you
no thrill —just seeing the person and reading—his dozens of awards—makes me
realize—I am ‘NO ONE’
does anyone read my article?
does anyone pay me?
There is a saying in our state which is a
beautiful state in our great United States
“a snapping turtle will not let go until the thunder roars’
the blue sky belongs to God–the rain
is –tears,the thunder is memory, the lighting is our fear—
And the fear is alone in the world
The rain will never stop—the thunder will never stop, and the lighting will never
—as the memories will never let go’
sexual abuse is a crime–but people
get away with it—because fear will
leave them in the rain—
and the bite —will ‘never’ let go.
I know this now as i was triggered
even at my age—and it is ‘still’
there—as an adult
who was sexually abused at age 15 to 17
by someone—who is a professional
I cannot compete with him.
So the memories continue—
Peace will never come—until
all victims come out and ‘TELL’
all victims –must –‘tell their true’
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