 I was abused by a Sunday school teacher for about 2 years. He would abuse me in the church bathroom, out back, in his car pretty much any time he could get me alone. I thought it was normal. I was 7 when the abuse began. He had me thinking about sex all the time. I have pretty much thought about sex everyday for the last 30 years. Only in about the last 11 years I have gained control of my thoughts. Several years ago I came to the decision that I needed to forgive this guy for what he had done to me. I am a Christian and I said to myself if I am going to believe the bible I need to believe 100% of it not just the parts I like. Jesus said to forgive others just as he has forgiven us. So I found out what correctional facility he was at (he went back to prison after he got out on my charges because he found another victim) and wrote him a letter saying "I forgive you". That letter is still in my top drawer. He passed away about a year ago. The letter never made it to him. I do feel a sense of relief. This guy had abused over 15 boys and that is just what came out. Who knows how many lives this guy ruined. I now use what happened to me to minister to others. I write a weekly blog for www.xxxchurch.com this is a ministry that helps people with porn addiction and those in the sex/porn industry. I have found that many of these people have a history of sexual abuse. So what better way to help than to share my story and experiences with them and let them know that they are not alone.
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