Terrible Nightmares

I always wondered why Dad did the things he did to me (us), was it my fault? Did I do something to entice him? I kept the secret until just recently. I have terrible nightmares. And I thought that was all it was until one day my sister said “Sorry honey that was not just a dream”. All the dreams I had about “some man” touching and violating me when I was 6 – 8 years of age turned out to be about my own father. He did not just violate me, he chased my older sister away from our home, he raped the two sisters that came after me, and he assaulted our five year old nephew. How can any one man destroy so many lives and so many innocents?

God saved me because I could not remember anything until recently. Now I have terrible problems in my marriage because of my fear of being touched. Thank God that my partner is a wonderful caring person and now encourages me to get the help that I need.

I have these crying jags now that come and go so often and I can’t control them. He never legally paid for all the hurt and damage he caused……..god help us all.

“The power to achieve the life of your dreams is in your hands”

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