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The Foundation currently is financing two survivors through their healing journey.  Check back often to see how the Let Go...Let Peace Come In Foundation has made a difference in the lives of these survivors.


Maureen (Bucks County, PA) PDF Print E-mail
My sexual abuse was a suppressed memory. It wasn't until high school when I became sexually active that the memory of my attack resurfaced. My attacker was my uncle. I was around 4 or 5 years old. Although I have always remembered the sexual encounter I experienced with my cousin (my attacker's son) as a 7 year old. This I always knew was wrong, but didn't understand why I was even curious to try. We both decided to try when we were playing house. I was the "mom" and he was the "dad". Neither one of us till this day ever mention it to each other.
Once the memory of my attack resurfaced, I have always felt betrayed, sad, scared, weak, angry all the time, DIRTY AND WORTHLESS. Along with these feelings deep inside I always felt like I needed a man in my life or their attention. I felt as though I always had to please them. I never had the strength to say NO. I would want to, but couldn't. Mostly because I feared what would happen  to me if I had said no. I even felt this way with men I was in long-term relationships with. I have always picked a man who was emotionally unavailable. I felt I had to HELP THEM. I became a very co-dependent person. Whenever my relationships failed I would always become promiscuous with the help of alcohol. I didn't care about the consequences, I just needed to fill the pain and void inside. I would turn to alcohol so I would feel more comfortable. I was having unprotected sex. Sometimes with complete strangers. I would drink so much that the next morning I wouldn't even remember the sexual encounter ever occurring.
I have kept my sexual abuse a complete secret. No one knew my darkest secret till the Fall of 2009. I started to feel it was okay to tell somebody about my abuse when I read a manuscript that was sitting on John's(my ex) table. The manuscript was about a man's childhood sexual abuse trauma (CSA) and his road to recovery. The manuscript's author was my friend Peter, the founder of Let Go, Let Peace Come In foundation. Peter's story touched my soul so deep and I admired him for finding the strength to even tell someone his story. As I have mentioned before, I have never told anyone about my abuse. I felt like it was my fault, alone, and dirty.
Peter told me about the LGLPCI foundation and gave me the contact number to a counselor/therapist, Annie, of The Starting Point. The LGLPCI foundation subsidized 30 sessions for me to begin my road to recovery of CSA. Together Annie and Allie(therapist of EMDR) have changed my life tremendously. I am still the same person I have always been, just a better, stronger version of myself. By my last session with Allie, I felt that pain and void deep inside disappear. Allie left me with the affirmation: I embrace my sexuality, it is an expression of my health, wholeness, and worthiness. I say this to myself everyday!!!! I know now I am not at fault for what has happened to me or for the impact my attack has had on me. My perpetrator is at fault and the cause. My sessions at the Starting Point has taught me and reminded me I am WORTHWHILE!
My sexual abuse was a suppressed memory. It wasn't until high school when I became sexually active that the memory of my attack resurfaced. My attacker was my uncle. I was around 4 or 5 years old. Although I have always remembered the sexual encounter I experienced with my cousin (my attacker's son) as a 7 year old. This I always knew was wrong, but didn't understand why I was even curious to try. We both decided to try when we were playing house. I was the "mom" and he was the "dad". Neither one of us till this day ever mention it to each other.

Once the memory of my attack resurfaced, I have always felt betrayed, sad, scared, weak, angry all the time, DIRTY AND WORTHLESS. Along with these feelings deep inside I always felt like I needed a man in my life or their attention. I felt as though I always had to please them. I never had the strength to say NO. I would want to, but couldn't. Mostly because I feared what would happen  to me if I had said no. I even felt this way with men I was in long-term relationships with. I have always picked a man who was emotionally unavailable. I felt I had to HELP THEM. I became a very co-dependent person. Whenever my relationships failed I would always become promiscuous with the help of alcohol. I didn't care about the consequences, I just needed to fill the pain and void inside. I would turn to alcohol so I would feel more comfortable. I was having unprotected sex. Sometimes with complete strangers. I would drink so much that the next morning I wouldn't even remember the sexual encounter ever occurring.

I have kept my sexual abuse a complete secret. No one knew my darkest secret till the Fall of 2009. I started to feel it was okay to tell somebody about my abuse when I read a manuscript that was sitting on John's(my ex) table. The manuscript was about a man's childhood sexual abuse trauma (CSA) and his road to recovery. The manuscript's author was my friend Peter, the founder of Let Go, Let Peace Come In foundation. Peter's story touched my soul so deep and I admired him for finding the strength to even tell someone his story. As I have mentioned before, I have never told anyone about my abuse. I felt like it was my fault, alone, and dirty.

Peter told me about the LGLPCI foundation and gave me the contact number to a counselor/therapist, Annie, of The Starting Point. The LGLPCI foundation subsidized 30 sessions for me to begin my road to recovery of CSA. Together Annie and Allie(therapist of EMDR) have changed my life tremendously. I am still the same person I have always been, just a better, stronger version of myself. By my last session with Allie, I felt that pain and void deep inside disappear. Allie left me with the affirmation: I embrace my sexuality, it is an expression of my health, wholeness, and worthiness. I say this to myself everyday!!!! I know now I am not at fault for what has happened to me or for the impact my attack has had on me. My perpetrator is at fault and the cause. My sessions at the Starting Point has taught me and reminded me I am WORTHWHILE!
 
Gary L. (New Jersey, United States) PDF Print E-mail
I was a child raised in over 23 foster homes and 16 institutions before the age of 16. In those years, I suffered sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse from countless individuals. I knew it was wrong and I knew that was not the way it should be, but after some time, I began to accept abuse from everyone that knew me.
Instead of telling anyone about how I felt or what was going on, I turned to heavy drug and alcohol use and then ran at the age of 16; and have been running ever since.
At the age of 17 I discovered prostitution. This role seem to fit well with what I expected from everyone because the only reason they wanted to love me was because they would get something in return. That was the way it would be until I was 24.  I was in a very abusive relationship with a woman and we had a child. The inevitable happened, she left me and took the baby. I was crushed and went on a drinking and drug binge. I found myself at one point wanting to kill myself, so in a desperate move, I went to the Emergency room of Jefferson Hospital. I was not able or willing to understand most of what they were saying but they did make me go to AA meetings. Hence the start of a very long recovery process in and out of the rooms of AA.
25 years later, and after 3 more lost, long term relationships ruined, I found myself back to square one again; wanting to kill myself, nowhere to go, my wife taking the children and nowhere to turn. This time, with much of a fight in me still, I was willing to try the recovery process once again, though the results I have seen and the pain I have been willing to endure have been profound. I owe everything to the the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation and thank them for helping me receive trauma therapy sessions that put me on my road to recovery and for helping me become the man I was put on this earth to be.  Those sessions made me realize I was previously treating the “symptoms” of alcohol and drug addiction and not the core issue of my sexual abuse.  I am now more willing to listen and learn than in any other time in my life. I was introduced to the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation by Vince DiPasquale, the founder of The Starting Point.  Through that contact with Vince, I received 30 subsidized trauma therapy counseling sessions from the LGLPCI Foundation. I did not know how much it would change my life.
Thanks to the financial subsidy from the LGLPCI Foundation I have been in counseling sessions and I have been able to see the traumas in my life and how they impacted everything I do; the people I pick for relationships, how distorted my view on life is, and most of all, how bankrupt my heart and soul had become. I am just starting out but the results have been, like I said, very dramatic. I am very blessed to have the counseling I need to grow and live like a human maybe for the first time in my life. I thank whole heartedly the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation for everything they have done for me and for helping me connect how the sexual, physical, mental, and emotional abuse affected every facet of my life.   I look forward to continuing my journey through the process of recovery.
I was a child raised in over 23 foster homes and 16 institutions before the age of 16. In those years, I suffered sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse from countless individuals. I knew it was wrong and I knew that was not the way it should be, but after some time, I began to accept abuse from everyone that knew me.

Instead of telling anyone about how I felt or what was going on, I turned to heavy drug and alcohol use and then ran at the age of 16; and have been running ever since.
At the age of 17 I discovered prostitution. This role seem to fit well with what I expected from everyone because the only reason they wanted to love me was because they would get something in return. That was the way it would be until I was 24.  I was in a very abusive relationship with a woman and we had a child. The inevitable happened, she left me and took the baby. I was crushed and went on a drinking and drug binge. I found myself at one point wanting to kill myself, so in a desperate move, I went to the Emergency room of Jefferson Hospital. I was not able or willing to understand most of what they were saying but they did make me go to AA meetings. Hence the start of a very long recovery process in and out of the rooms of AA.

25 years later, and after 3 more lost, long term relationships ruined, I found myself back to square one again; wanting to kill myself, nowhere to go, my wife taking the children and nowhere to turn. This time, with much of a fight in me still, I was willing to try the recovery process once again, though the results I have seen and the pain I have been willing to endure have been profound. I owe everything to the the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation and thank them for helping me receive trauma therapy sessions that put me on my road to recovery and for helping me become the man I was put on this earth to be.  Those sessions made me realize I was previously treating the “symptoms” of alcohol and drug addiction and not the core issue of my sexual abuse.  I am now more willing to listen and learn than in any other time in my life. I was introduced to the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation by Vince DiPasquale, the founder of The Starting Point.  Through that contact with Vince, I received 30 subsidized trauma therapy counseling sessions from the LGLPCI Foundation. I did not know how much it would change my life.

Thanks to the financial subsidy from the LGLPCI Foundation I have been in counseling sessions and I have been able to see the traumas in my life and how they impacted everything I do; the people I pick for relationships, how distorted my view on life is, and most of all, how bankrupt my heart and soul had become. I am just starting out but the results have been, like I said, very dramatic. I am very blessed to have the counseling I need to grow and live like a human maybe for the first time in my life. I thank whole heartedly the Let Go Let Peace Come in Foundation for everything they have done for me and for helping me connect how the sexual, physical, mental, and emotional abuse affected every facet of my life.   I look forward to continuing my journey through the process of recovery.